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 so, i did a little observation and going out. i try blending in with other people in my neighborhood, i also observe people and look back at them in the eyes sometimes. i made a small talk to the cashier in the convenience store. i also practice acting to make me look a little more organic while being witho other individuals. when someones talking to me, i usually dont pay much attention cause i think its just wasting time but eh, now i froce myself to listen and pay attention so i can relate to them even though i dont really want to. 

anyways i did all these things because im bored obviously, and i want to atleast blend in with the society. nxbksdhf sounds so edgy but, its just, i spend the first 5 years of my teenage year being a neet, not going outside, never interact with other people. i dont feel bad doing those things but, i just wanna try being normal and actually feel like a human being. and beside that, i dont have much friends. i dont mind that, i dont want to really have much friends anyways but sometimes i need a counterpart to share its opinion with me. 

i enjoy my loneliness, i dont feel like i need many friends, i dont want to seek a friend group. i just want to connect with some people because, in the future i can probably use them for my own good and goals thats one, and two i want to sharpen my observation, deduction, and communication skills. so slick hah. 

anyways thats all my report for now. ill be back with more later.