rain season.

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it was 2 in the night i have been up for 13 hours now i still cant sleep. i shifted in bed a few times with minimum interval, 3 minutes and maximal 5 minutes. it was very hard to endure, i did not feel the need to sleep or rest. theres an itch in the back of my brain, a jolt of neurons all over the noodle ball of mine. i just need to do something in the middle of the night, i just need it i want it. 

that night i ended up not doing anything and just blasted sundress - a$ap rocky in my airpods. i heard the way he raps the music satisfy my ears and brain, out of body experience. the way the drums jumps from my left to my right ears is unholy, it makes me scream all night long, sweat glistened from my bare skin. my cheeks are all flushed and my screams were apparent to everyone in the house. 

the way music really makes me feel things i cant feel in reality is wicked. it was so cool and so so... calming. i feel so fulfilled and so pleasured by listening to music. it may sound sinister but this is the way i can explain it to you. i feel like oxygen rushing to my head so fast, all the hemoglobins sticks the oxygen 100 times harder and better. for a moment i was in nirvana. my lungs were full of clean oxygen, all the waste in the air was washed away from the rain. 

it was totally graphic death scene cool!