the heartbroken.

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today im grazing on a subject thats a bit more sensitive than others that ive talked about on my page. today i will show a sign of humanity, a weakness in each every us has, which is emotion. i have been refraining myself from talking about this for sometime but, i guess everything has its limits. my heart has been broken by a boy who, i trusted and nurtured for almost a year.  

he broke my trust with simple words, broke my heart almost instantly. although i do not care now, it still hurts to see that a person you used to be so invested to just slips away from your hands and drift away like the ice melts from the north pole to the south pole, fading away melting from ice to water. 

my feelings right now does not represent how i felt, so these words i type in to from my heart isnt as severe as how i felt a few weeks ago, its like sifting ocean water to get salt, meaningless. these words arent enough to represent my feelings. arent enough to represent the tragedy that strucks us. 

now im happier. i dont find fire and the heat of love today. there still is tomorrow but, i hope tomorrow comes late. i dont want to feel again, i want to be set free. im not inlove with anyone but me and the momentum right now. im glad we drifted away, im glad the glacier melts. im glad and greatful for it.

and i dont see him as a foe nor a friend. just someone i used to know deeply, someone i used to be with. i do not hold grudges, if anything im thankful. i grow as a person and as a woman. although it hurts i did not shed a single tears, not for a men who threw away my hard works, im able to feel what i wanna feel and do what i wanna do for as long as i want it to be. 

in conclusion, i found out that i can survive without any male attention.